In the mornings, I always have a feeling whether today will be a good day or it'll be a terrible day. This morning, I just feel worse about myself. I don't even want to go look into the mirror. Then again, I do, so I can try to help myself. I see everything about me as flaws. I despise it, I just want to get rid of this feeling. My family doesn't help - all they say is "You're not ugly!", "You're beautiful!", or "You're so cute!" How is that supposed to help? I need someone to talk to, not compliment me when it's not true.
I wish I was beautiful. And when I say beautiful, I mean Lisa Marie Presley beautiful, or Riley Keough beautiful, or this girl at my school beautiful. It doesn't help having someone to call you ugly either, or big nose. Don't they know that hurts? I have feelings too! Sure, I might seem like one of the toughest people determining feelings, but I'm NOT! When people say those things, it makes me want to go hide and break down into a corner, pass out there and no one finds me. I am insecure, but I still have a little confidence sometimes, but not enough to just let those words go. I wish I could, but I criticize myself in about everything. Why can't I be beautiful... ?
Being "beautiful" is overrated. Physically, I am what you would consider a very pretty girl. I'm often told I'm attractive and should model, checked out by guys constantly, and confident. That probably sounds like the greatest thing in the world but it really isn't. Truth be told, I'm hardly approached by guys because they find me intimidating so I haven't gotten the chance to experience love and when guys do approach me, I'm not sure if he likes me for me or is just looking at my body and face. I also have to deal with jealous girls on a daily basis.
ReplyDeleteConfidence doesn't come with being physically attractive. I use to be the most inconfident person in the world, trust me. Being confident starts with within yourself. For every flaw you see, look at something positive. When someone calls you ugly just remember they're doing that because they're so insecure with their looks that they have to tear someone down to rise themselves up. Remember that looks aren't factual and it's all a matter of opinion. While one person might find you unattractive there will always be someone else who thinks you're the most beautiful girl in the world.
It sounds cheesy but it's truly what's in the inside that matters.